Sometimes memories flood my mind unexpectedly. Memories that I don't want to have. Memories that I wish would just pass me by rather than enter me. But the fact is they do.
I stumbled upon your blog today. Seeing pictures of you and that sweet smile of yours, I can't help but fantasize about the days that we would have had if I actually had you by my side. But I never did. I never dared to pull you in and hold you close to me.
Thinking about that part of my life, the few times that we've met, I've always had this special feeling for you. Something that I really can't describe even till this day. But my eyes weren't meant to roam. I guess the time wasn't right for us. And you slowly faded away..
We lived our lives from then the way it would have played out even if we hadn't known of each other's existence. I never really was a significant part of your life and neither were you in mine. But every once in a while I think of you. I smile.
The time could be right for us now. You've been single haven't you? So have I. But I lack the intestinal fortitude to approach you. We seem to belong to different dimensions. We seem to exist in the same plane and yet our worlds are so far apart. What makes me smile might make you cry.
Don't get me wrong. I do want to be the one for you. I want to be the one to hold you and tell you that everything's alright. I want to banish all those memories that you and him created. But the only way I can even come close to that is to make new memories, of you and I.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid that to start a new life with you, I'd have to go back to a hidden place in my mind where I've dumped all the disappointment, all the hurt and all the pain from your world, confident that I'd never have to go through them again.
I might be wrong. We might be the best thing that could ever happen to the both of us. Please tell me if I'm wrong.
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